Tuesday, May 10, 2005

She is So ME

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Listening: 3rd Annual World Sound Healing Day archive with Jonathan Goldman and Dr. Masaru Emoto on World Puja

Mood: SO happy they finally posted this archive!

Toby and I have a favourite game. We take turns at coming up with what all the other versions of ourselves are being and doing in parallel timelines. It is SO much fun.

We don't have a name for it, but we always start with, "There's version of me who is...." and then we try to come up with scenarios based on what would've happened if we'd made different choices at certain turning points in our lives, like when we split up with someone or when we left home for the first time, then instead of following the timeline you know, you invent another timeline based on making a different choice. You can keep "playing the movie", as it were, and come up with some seriously funny shit.

Example: There's a version of me somewhere who instead of going to London in '88 and discovering acid house and ecstasy, stayed here and went to Uni, got a degree, stopped going to discos and instead, became an author. After many years of struggle, she has just published her latest book, "The Iz-ness of the Liz-ness", to critical acclaim.

See what I mean by fun? You can go as nuts as you want - it's a brilliant way to expand how you see yourself too. Imagining different versions of yourself allows you to open up to new possibilities, to new ways of being, and to keep the story of YOU alive. When we tell the same old stories about ourselves, we lose our vitality and create patterns energetically that are hard to break, especially if you've been telling the same old story the same way, again and again. There's no space for the new to come in, so try telling the story differently the next time you tell it.

If you've visited this blog before you might've noticed that I am always re-writing new posts, changing little things here and there. One day a post will go up then it will disappear and re-emerge in a slightly different form a few days later, or I'll change the title of a post, or add some more links that weren't there originally. I've even thought of going back and adding new posts dated in February or March just to see if anyone noticed, and for the sheer fun of re-inventing time the way you can when the counters on these blog programs allows you to change the time or date to suit you.

I find it thrilling in a way that the art you can create in the digital world doesn't have to remain static. You can create something digitally, and say you tire of an element in it, then you just go ahead and change it. It continues to have life. It's so different to printing a book for example, or painting and lacquering a canvas; once it's done it's done and stays that way forever.

This environment on the other hand is always changing, always evolving. I like it when I can flow with that. If that goes against the standard rule "Always check that your posts are the final version, as it can be embarrassing to have to re-edit", well, tough. I know typos and grammar are a nuisance if they're left unchecked, but as far as being able to go back and elaborate on something I've already posted, or remove a passage that's annoying after it has been published, that's unreal.

There's also a version of me who looks just like this somewhere too.
Her name is Eva 0. She's cool, no?

I wonder what she gets up to.

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